I was surprised to feel very emotional about
everything. I don’t think I’d realized how
much being bigger bothered me and acknowledged that in less
than 7 months I’ve lost almost 6 stone, and it was my first birthday in 15
years as a non plus sized woman. I have
to be honest and say I don’t really believe it still yet, it’s hard to explain
but it’s truly overwhelming.
In class recently we talked about non scale results and one
of the Group said she’s further away from the steering wheel. We sort of laughed but it’s true. There’s the obvious and wonderful being able
to shop for clothes pretty much wherever
I want, and that really is such an incredible freedom but there are funny
little changes; I don’t look around me in restaurants to see if I’ll fit in the
space between the wall and the table, having lost 12” off my hips, my work
chair seems really big and the smile I get every time I pull my jeans out of
the drier and know that whilst they might not be tiny to someone else, to me
they look like I stole them off Barbie and I’ll take her – she’s not having
them back!
So I relaxed and celebrated not just my birthday but my birthday
week with some absolutely wonderful people that I am honored to have in my
life.
It all kicked off with one of my all-time favorite meals, bruschetta
with lasagna and prosecco. I did make a
low fat version of both but not as low fat as I could’ve done and I gave the
Prosecco a good run for its money….big treat….the week carried on with wine,
more wine and a rare dinner out so whilst it is Throwback Tuesday it’s also Terrified
Tuesday as I have no idea what the scales are going to say. But and to me this is the key, it’s just a day
– well ok, a few days (!) – and it needs to be done. Not all the time but when it’s time to
celebrate that’s what you do. You enjoy
the people you love. You have wine and
enjoy yourself as that’s what life’s all about and the next day you start
again. You don’t let it drift, you get
right back as the routine is the careful eating, treats are the exception which
is what makes them treats.
I’m back on it of course and last night I had soy and chilli
baked salmon with samphire for dinner. Fat
free, syn free and not taste free but not a drop of bubbly in sight. Well, not for a week anyway….
So here’s my throwback Tuesday photo and I am very proud of
what I’ve achieved and very grateful for the people that supported me to get
here as when I looked back on the year I smiled a huge birthday smile before
having my Weetabix muffins and fruit!!!!
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| Throwback Tuesday |
Kathy xx
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